10. I can sit down and eat breakfast with my kids every morning. (If I worked I don't think I would do that. It'd be a bowl of cereal and out the door!)
9. Taking breaks throughout the day to play with my kids. We build forts in the living room. I give manicures, face paint, finger paint, read books, watch movies and so much more during my work day. I have definitely mastered the art of multi-tasking.
8. I can choose how much work to do. If I want to be really ambitious I can take on a super heavy load that I know will bring in more money but will have me up typing all night long. If I'm being more reasonable I'll take my typical load. And if I'm just too busy with every thing else or not feeling good I can take a light load. I love the flexibility.
7. Tea time whenever I want it! Yum!!
6. Nap time is my time! I used to work through nap time but I've come to my senses. Sometimes I still do work a little but I realized I'm so much better if I take that time for M-E. I sew, or knit, or read, or sleep, or watch a movie. It's sooooo wonderful. No job would give me a two hour break everyday.
5. I get to make my own schedule...let me rephrase that. Me and my kids get to make MY schedule, lol.
4. I get to contribute to my household's income. When that check comes in the mail there is a definite satisfaction and motivation to keep going. Hey, no work = no money!
3. It's more comfortable to work at home and be a business owner. I love being the boss (I get it from my mama!) and no one is telling me what to do. I make all the decisions. Very nice, very very nice.
2. No coworkers. While I love people I have come to accept the fact that I work good alone. I am an independent worker. I love to just do my own thing and figure things out on my own. (I get that from my mama, too..., lol).
1. Being able to be here for my kids. That's really why I do it. If they're sick I can flex my schedule to be able to give them extra hugs and kisses and nurse them back to health. If they have a doctor's appointment no one is telling me when I can get a day off to do that. If we want to go to the park or spend the day at the children's museum or visiting people we can just do that. We live how we want for the most part. That's awesome!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Funny kids
My kids are so funny. My son E is in this phase where all he does is hum. He hums when he eating...through the ENTIRE meal. We usually know he's done when it gets quiet. He hums and the crazy thing is I understand the meanings of his different hums.
Anyway, I taught him to say "I don't know", but of course in his humming way. He holds up his hands palms up and "I don't know" and hums at the same time. It's so cute. Well, I guess he knows what "I don't know means and how to use it. When he hits his sister Z and she screams like she was hit with a baseball bat (She is very dramatic) we'll ask him what happened and he says "I don't know" in his little mumbling way. It's so funny, but I try really hard not to laugh in front of them, especially when she's crying. Ahhh...kids are a trip. I know there will be a day when this will drive me crazy and not be a cute behavior, but for now I think it is so funny.
I love their relationship. They get along so well. Z is so loving towards E. She's always putting his pacifier up so it won't get dirty (neat freak...yes). She gets his sippy cup for him. Sometimes they just walk up to each other and hug. To think that I felt so guilty about adding another child into the mix...I can't imagine life without E and their relationship is just amazing. I know Z is better with him than without. They are at a stage where they play really well together. Most days I just sit and watch them make up the weirdest games to play together. They laugh like they are having the time of their lives together and that makes me really happy...children truly are a joy.
Anyway, I taught him to say "I don't know", but of course in his humming way. He holds up his hands palms up and "I don't know" and hums at the same time. It's so cute. Well, I guess he knows what "I don't know means and how to use it. When he hits his sister Z and she screams like she was hit with a baseball bat (She is very dramatic) we'll ask him what happened and he says "I don't know" in his little mumbling way. It's so funny, but I try really hard not to laugh in front of them, especially when she's crying. Ahhh...kids are a trip. I know there will be a day when this will drive me crazy and not be a cute behavior, but for now I think it is so funny.
I love their relationship. They get along so well. Z is so loving towards E. She's always putting his pacifier up so it won't get dirty (neat freak...yes). She gets his sippy cup for him. Sometimes they just walk up to each other and hug. To think that I felt so guilty about adding another child into the mix...I can't imagine life without E and their relationship is just amazing. I know Z is better with him than without. They are at a stage where they play really well together. Most days I just sit and watch them make up the weirdest games to play together. They laugh like they are having the time of their lives together and that makes me really happy...children truly are a joy.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Baby Names 101
Okay, so this is a huge topic of discussion but surprisingly not something I think about everyday. I guess with everything else going on in my life I'm not really feeling that I have to have a name for the babies until they are born. That's what we did with Elijah. Of course we didn't know what we were having and I really didn't want him to be named Elijah, but when you're under the influence of drugs...no j/k. I'm not sure how we ended up with that name. I guess he just looked like an Elijah and the meaning is "Jehovah is my God". When I was pregnant with him I started learning about the name of God and I thought his name "Elijah" was awesome because it's saying Jehovah is his God...and people need to know about God's name being Jehovah nowadays. Plus I really pray that all my children will know and have a close relationship with Jehovah God.
So I had a dream about the little girl who keeps her feet all up in my ribcage and her name was Laylah. It means "dark beauty". I really like that name. Don't know of a middle name that goes with it though.
Then for a boy we want to name him Elbert after my brother but we're not so sure that we want that as a first name, and we can't think of a first name to go with it if we use it as a middle name.
Everyonne has been coming up with some craaaaaazzy names. My sister El wants to name them after famous duos...
1. Ike and Tina
2. Jay and Beyonce
3. Winnie and Nelson
4. Mary and Charles (my mom and dad's name...that's really funny if you know their history)
5. Ashford and Simpson
6. Bobby and Whitney
7. Chris and Reina
Need I go on?? She is silly and ridiculous, yet she swears she would use these names on her twins. I guess that why I'm having them and not her, lol.
My stepdaughter K has come up with a few funny ones too. Her first set was Sally and Robin. And I can't remember her second set...it's so funny though. We definitely want something with some ethnicity and meaning and hers are just so eurocetric...and very reminiscent of slavery....
Well, the search continues. Maybe I'll dream up a boy name tonight that goes well with Elbert and Laylah <-----I love that name!
Peace.
So I had a dream about the little girl who keeps her feet all up in my ribcage and her name was Laylah. It means "dark beauty". I really like that name. Don't know of a middle name that goes with it though.
Then for a boy we want to name him Elbert after my brother but we're not so sure that we want that as a first name, and we can't think of a first name to go with it if we use it as a middle name.
Everyonne has been coming up with some craaaaaazzy names. My sister El wants to name them after famous duos...
1. Ike and Tina
2. Jay and Beyonce
3. Winnie and Nelson
4. Mary and Charles (my mom and dad's name...that's really funny if you know their history)
5. Ashford and Simpson
6. Bobby and Whitney
7. Chris and Reina
Need I go on?? She is silly and ridiculous, yet she swears she would use these names on her twins. I guess that why I'm having them and not her, lol.
My stepdaughter K has come up with a few funny ones too. Her first set was Sally and Robin. And I can't remember her second set...it's so funny though. We definitely want something with some ethnicity and meaning and hers are just so eurocetric...and very reminiscent of slavery....
Well, the search continues. Maybe I'll dream up a boy name tonight that goes well with Elbert and Laylah <-----I love that name!
Peace.
uterus is irritated...
So much going on in life right now...
Yesterday I went to L&D for preterm labor. When they hooked me up to the monitors I wwas contracting like 2 to 3 minutes apart. They immediately gave me a shot of terbutine and that slowed things down. I was also given a FFN test and that determined that I have a 1% chance of giving birth within the next 7-10 days. So I was sent home. The only problem was that my uterus was still very irritable and contracting on and off. It wasn't the "bring on the baby" type of contractions but it was just enough to make me uncomfortable. I canceled my piano lessons this morning and spent the whole days in bed.
Later I remembered that I had some magnesium supplements so I took some of those and they actually stopped my uterus from contracting so much. So now I'm much more comfortable...I'm also happier...Ladies and gentleman the *itch has left the building...hahaha!
So now I'm trying to be patient and make it to at least 36 weeks with this pregnancy. I pray that I do. I want these babies to be healthy, be able to breastfeed right away and be able to come home with me when I leave the hospital.
Yesterday I went to L&D for preterm labor. When they hooked me up to the monitors I wwas contracting like 2 to 3 minutes apart. They immediately gave me a shot of terbutine and that slowed things down. I was also given a FFN test and that determined that I have a 1% chance of giving birth within the next 7-10 days. So I was sent home. The only problem was that my uterus was still very irritable and contracting on and off. It wasn't the "bring on the baby" type of contractions but it was just enough to make me uncomfortable. I canceled my piano lessons this morning and spent the whole days in bed.
Later I remembered that I had some magnesium supplements so I took some of those and they actually stopped my uterus from contracting so much. So now I'm much more comfortable...I'm also happier...Ladies and gentleman the *itch has left the building...hahaha!
So now I'm trying to be patient and make it to at least 36 weeks with this pregnancy. I pray that I do. I want these babies to be healthy, be able to breastfeed right away and be able to come home with me when I leave the hospital.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wordless...
Yesterday I left this blog window open for so long...pretty much all day in fact. I had so many things that kept going in and out of my head and I kept thinking, "Man I should blog about that!" But I never did.
Let's rewind back about 11 or 12 years ago when I was 15 or 16 years old. I was a huge fan of journaling...but I'm old fashioned so it was a Diary. Notice the capital "D". My Diary was like an extension of a person or a spirit...well I don't know if I would go that far, but it did have it's own entity about it. I carried that darn thing with me everywhere. To school, on the bus, to band practice, at home, while watching TV, while eating, while at the mall...I loved to write in my Diary. There was something about filling up the pages with ink, trying to write pretty...if I was mad writing furiously. I recorded every part of my life. Now the good thing is that I have a record of what happened during those things...a very extensive record! A few years ago I went back through the entries and read things that I was like, "Whoa, I don't even remember this." Even my own thoughts about life at that point surprise me. There were times when I can say that I was wise and there are some things that I had rationalized that I can say, "Thank God I don't think like that anymore!"
Now, it's funny that I started this entry "wordless" but yet the words are flowing. I think that's how a lot of things are in life. Sometimes you don't know what's going to happen, what to say, when to do what you need to do or how, but when you start on something things just flow and come to some sort of formation. That's really good to remember, especially right now in my life. We are going through a bad depression economically in this country and it has hit home with us. My husband has been unemployed for over a month now. There used to be a time where you could go looking for a job and find one in at least a week. My husband's been looking virtually everyday and still nothing. Now he is going to reapply at places he has all ready applied at, hoping that by changing up his resume a little they will see something they didn't before. Isn't this crazy?!?! But I have faith that things will be fine. Whatever happens, things will be fine. It might not be what we want to happen, but we will be fine. I believe in a God named Jehovah who has proven to be our provider through this whole time and even before that. Thinking on that helps me to sleep at night not worrying about bills and how we're going to pay or rent, or how we're going to get by...
"Seek ye first the Kingdom of God..." --words that are easy to say but hard to live by...but in this time we must.
Peace...
Let's rewind back about 11 or 12 years ago when I was 15 or 16 years old. I was a huge fan of journaling...but I'm old fashioned so it was a Diary. Notice the capital "D". My Diary was like an extension of a person or a spirit...well I don't know if I would go that far, but it did have it's own entity about it. I carried that darn thing with me everywhere. To school, on the bus, to band practice, at home, while watching TV, while eating, while at the mall...I loved to write in my Diary. There was something about filling up the pages with ink, trying to write pretty...if I was mad writing furiously. I recorded every part of my life. Now the good thing is that I have a record of what happened during those things...a very extensive record! A few years ago I went back through the entries and read things that I was like, "Whoa, I don't even remember this." Even my own thoughts about life at that point surprise me. There were times when I can say that I was wise and there are some things that I had rationalized that I can say, "Thank God I don't think like that anymore!"
Now, it's funny that I started this entry "wordless" but yet the words are flowing. I think that's how a lot of things are in life. Sometimes you don't know what's going to happen, what to say, when to do what you need to do or how, but when you start on something things just flow and come to some sort of formation. That's really good to remember, especially right now in my life. We are going through a bad depression economically in this country and it has hit home with us. My husband has been unemployed for over a month now. There used to be a time where you could go looking for a job and find one in at least a week. My husband's been looking virtually everyday and still nothing. Now he is going to reapply at places he has all ready applied at, hoping that by changing up his resume a little they will see something they didn't before. Isn't this crazy?!?! But I have faith that things will be fine. Whatever happens, things will be fine. It might not be what we want to happen, but we will be fine. I believe in a God named Jehovah who has proven to be our provider through this whole time and even before that. Thinking on that helps me to sleep at night not worrying about bills and how we're going to pay or rent, or how we're going to get by...
"Seek ye first the Kingdom of God..." --words that are easy to say but hard to live by...but in this time we must.
Peace...
Thoughts on having twins...
Well, after just watching Dr. Phil's show about "Octomom" bring her babies home I definitely think my life will be much much easier than that. I hate to even call her "Octomom". That is so not fair. I think I'm one of the few who says to leave the woman alone. She seems to be a great mom from what I've seen on TV...she is just got a big challenge ahead of her for the next few years.
Now, notice I did not say, "She sure is going to have her hands full!" Gosh, I hate when people say that to me. I really don't go anywhere by myself with Zion and Elijah for obvious reason (the huge belly), but when I did that's all I heard. Then when I got pregnant people just looked at me as if I was crazy...or at least that's what it felt like to me. Honestly, I don't give a crap about what they or anyone else thinks. The bible says that "Children are the heritage of the Lord," and even says that blessed is who has many! So I'm blessed and I truly see my children as being that in my life. Now granted, when they were still pooping and crying and nursing around the clock it was more work, but I did see the joy in it then. But now it's like we're just coasting along in our routine and things are good. I have so much fun with them and watching their personalities develop. I am definitely looking forward to adding the twins into the mix and watching how they all interact together. It is going to be challenging. I know that. I'm not niave. But I see my children as blessings who will bring great things into my life...they are definitely not curses.
Thoughts on having twins...
I feel blessed and chosen, if that makes any sense. It is such a wonderful feeling. I know that not every woman will get to experience being pregnant with to babies so I feel really special. It's interesting that there are only two sets of twins in the whole bible, yet today 3 out of 100 women will have twins. I wonder why Jehovah didn't tell us more about twins, but then again he didn't go unto a lot of details about pregnancy or childbirth either. I guess he left it for us to figure out.
Anyway, I gotta go put Elijah and Zion to bed. Hopefully I can get some sewing done since I just got finished with my work. Yeah! No late night for me tonight.
Peace...
Now, notice I did not say, "She sure is going to have her hands full!" Gosh, I hate when people say that to me. I really don't go anywhere by myself with Zion and Elijah for obvious reason (the huge belly), but when I did that's all I heard. Then when I got pregnant people just looked at me as if I was crazy...or at least that's what it felt like to me. Honestly, I don't give a crap about what they or anyone else thinks. The bible says that "Children are the heritage of the Lord," and even says that blessed is who has many! So I'm blessed and I truly see my children as being that in my life. Now granted, when they were still pooping and crying and nursing around the clock it was more work, but I did see the joy in it then. But now it's like we're just coasting along in our routine and things are good. I have so much fun with them and watching their personalities develop. I am definitely looking forward to adding the twins into the mix and watching how they all interact together. It is going to be challenging. I know that. I'm not niave. But I see my children as blessings who will bring great things into my life...they are definitely not curses.
Thoughts on having twins...
I feel blessed and chosen, if that makes any sense. It is such a wonderful feeling. I know that not every woman will get to experience being pregnant with to babies so I feel really special. It's interesting that there are only two sets of twins in the whole bible, yet today 3 out of 100 women will have twins. I wonder why Jehovah didn't tell us more about twins, but then again he didn't go unto a lot of details about pregnancy or childbirth either. I guess he left it for us to figure out.
Anyway, I gotta go put Elijah and Zion to bed. Hopefully I can get some sewing done since I just got finished with my work. Yeah! No late night for me tonight.
Peace...
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